Piles of Blessings

May 5th, 2010

B isn’t feeling so great and yesterday we are hoping she had the flu and that the typical morning sickness will be all day sickness for her. We don’t have a choice about the matter she is going to have to work until Christmas and then we are taking one Big Giant leap of faith into the unknown and she will be quitting her job and I will become the sole provider for our family. Having grown up in a household where both parents worked this terrifies me and my shoulders seem to be sore everyday from the stress this weight has put on them and it is still 7 months away. My B has been such a trooper and is ‘muscling through’ at work so that people don’t know she is pregnant. We haven’t told anyone yet because she doesn’t want to be the office gossip. We will tell people in a month or so because I won’t be able to hide the joy I’m feeling and she won’t be able to hide the stomach that is growing.

Speaking of growing…I am doing my best to stop my stomach from growing right along side hers. It doesn’t help that I feel like a walking before picture for weight loss programs. I’m afraid that when we go into the doctor’s office the first time they will wheel me directly into delivery by mistake. To prevent this from happening I have recommitted to going to the gym. I got up at 6 a.m. and worked my arms with Devin Dimond until they felt like mush. It will be good to feel good again and although I’m not looking forward to the ache that is bound to come I can’t wait for that high that comes through exercise.

Nothing major happened yesterday. Just a pile of happy moments, one on top of another. B and I went to the greenhouse with Becki and Mom to get our flowers for the season. This day is always like Christmas to me, and my heart starts to beat quicker as we approach the greenhouse and I’m able to run my fingers over the tops of countless blooms. Row after row of color…I can’t wait until my first day in heaven when I will be able to see the colors for real and see the beauty that I have been missing. Upon returning home and lining up the 8 flats of flowers that we got we snuggled into the corner of our couch and watched a little TV until it was time to go to bed. Climbing into bed together we opened the windows to let the cool spring air of Utah in…there is nothing better than snuggling with my B, a cool breeze and some soft hymns playing to make it the perfect end to a great day.