Spirit Thumping

May 4th, 2010

Lately, I feel as if my spirit, fed up from quietly knocking on the door to my soul, has begun to pound frantically so that I will wake up to what is around me. Wake up to the realization that I have become lazy spiritually. Wake up that the Lord is ever present in my life. I have begun to wax strong in my disregard for the spirit; rather I go from day to day, moment to moment living my routine and trusting that I will grow with no effort of my own. Wake up Daddy! I hear my unborn children crying down from heaven for me to prepare the way for them to join my beautiful wife and myself.

Perhaps the pounding has increased due to the fact that my wife, (it still seems so strange at times to utter that phrase. Even after nearly 8 months of marriage the miracle that I found her and she loved me, faults and all, seems so unreal and as if I am still waiting for the dream of ‘One Day’. But that day is here!) called me to come home from an ordinary day at the office. Quietly she took my hand and let me know that we were going to have a baby. Me a daddy! Me the one that they will look too to solve their problems and fix their broken bikes and come up with science projects. Me a coach of little league and an impromptu pony for them to ride. I am so humbled that the Lord with all of his knowledge of what’s to come and what has been has entrusted Anna and myself to parent one of his children here on this earth. What an overwhelming task to raise this child to know their God and his infinite love and goodness.

And so my spirit pounds on the door to my soul. Wake up to the life that you have been blessed with. Wake up to the path before you. Take control of your life and take up the charge to grow, to lead and most importantly to follow the leader of us all.