I will go...I will do!

Wednesday May 12, 2010

As I have mentioned before, the thought of being a father and a sole provider for my family has been weighing on my shoulders something awful. On Monday night Anna B and I went up to Becki’s to do a joint Family Home Evening. Becki taught the lesson and it was on courage to face our challenges. She told the story of how she knew Nathan was up in heaven and that she just had to have courage to trust in the Lord that everything would work out and that they would be able to afford to have him. Then sitting in Primary, the kids began to sing a song about Nephi’s courage and the chorus “I will go…I will do…the things the Lord commands” and she was overcome with the spirit telling her to do the things the Lord commanded for her…mainly to have a family. I was also overcome with the spirit telling me to have faith and move forward with knowledge that this is in the Lord’s plan and he won’t let me or my family down.

As I was pondering this last night I crept into the bedroom to join my wife who had already gone to bed. I thought about the weight on my shoulders, my lack of faith in the Lord and my need to feel secure. As I climbed into bed B’s foot unconsciously slid over in her sleep to find my foot and it struck me…I’m not alone in this. For 30 years I have gone it alone facing my problems with support from my family but alone nonetheless and now I have a partner to help me face the fears and the challenges that are ahead. What a blessing!